Anger never dies alone.
It always takes something with it when it goes down.
Like your porn addiction.
What was once arousing is now troubling and degrading when anger isn’t shaping what you see. Your inner being is no longer compatible with aggression or objectification. You can’t accept the twisted vocabulary which porn requires you to agree with. There are no more whores or sluts, only sisters and brothers made in the image of God.
Like your selfishness.
It becomes a whole lot easier to give other the best of yourself when you are not living in a land where you are angry all the time because you don’t have enough. Those closest to you will learn to breath again as you begin to contribute to the atmosphere instead of suck the air out of rooms.
Like your negativity.
Without anger fueling a sense of entitlement or scarcity you no longer have to force yourself to be a positive person. Again, you aren’t trying to be positive, it is just that without anger in your life the glass actually appears half full and you describe it as you see it.
Like your drinking.
You abuse alcohol to help you forget the angry person you are, and the things that angry person has done. People who like themselves and their lives don’t have anything to escape from.
Like your fear.
Your anger wasn’t an emotion. It was a tinted lens which made the world look like a dangerous place. Angry people are always scared. They project themselves on the world around them. They are no more safe with anyone than they are with themselves. The world is as angry as they are – no wonder they are scared.
Anger is going to go on a murderous rampage before it goes.
But there are not going to be any innocent victims.